Can You Just Move On? PLEASE...

Every person their own dreams to pursue...

I am now saying this straight.

I'm sorry if I was sending you wrong signals before. It was my mistake. Again, for the nth time, i'm sorry...

Move on with your life... Without me.

Grow up... Without me.

Pursue your dream... Without me.

Before, I was always assuring you that I would not leave your side as a FRIEND. But it seems that you are quite allergic with that word. You cannot accept the fact that things have already changed, permanently, between us.

I'm moving on with my own life. Alone. If it needs for me to utter harsh words for you to understand, I would do it. Why? It is not that I want to hurt you. But I want you to find your own life. You are stuck in the world wherein you expect me to be with you.

Let's just face it, the complicated circumstances of life has gone to its peak.

The truth is, IT WOULD NEVER BE "US", as of now.

I don't know when, if you would ask on when could you possibly make it up for me.

Please don't let yourself suffer anymore. Move on. Grow up. You are just hurting yourself. You still have a good career to face after all. You've done your part as a student. As a son.

It is time for you now to find your own happiness. The thing is, I'm not included in that happy world of yours.

I may have been giving you alot pain after all what I'm saying now. But you'll soon realize that these are still words of a concerned friend. A friend who would want you to accept the reality of life openly.

I may also serve as an inspiration to you. But that is just about it. Plain inspiration.

There are really some things that you can't have. It's part of the learning process of growing up. But don't be stuck in frustration. Maybe somewhere, somehow, you'll meet someone who will really give all the happiness that you wosh for in a relationship. Someone who is more compatible with you. Someone who would really care and love you as what you have wished it to be.

But that Someone is not ME. I hope I'm getting myself clear across.

I know for a fact that its not easy to move on. But just think that the past have been happy memories. Memories. Those were not nightmares after all.

I still thank you for being a part of my life. I did not regret meeting you. It's just that, we have to accept the reality that FRIENDS is all we could ever be.

If you cannot accept my gift of a simple friendship, I will understand.

Move on. Grow up. Dream big.

...without me...

alone and weak

i thought everything was falling into its rightful place.

but then, i was all wrong, again.

deep in my heart, i know that i am doing what is just right. it's not my problem if other people would put colors into pictures that should have not colors in it.

i was just all normal these days... not until some forces have put their power into me. i am just grateful that life has offered me a lot of blessings. but now, all i feel is that every little thing that surrounds me is all unfair.

i am just human. i work clean. i speak the truth.

but then, there will really come a time in your life that nobody would fight for you. because each one of them are covered with fear. while deep in their hearts, they know what the truth is.

some sort of a super hero would come to rescue you.

you were thankful for it. but you know for a fact that even though he promised to fight for you, its not that all easy.

there are still more powerful forces that could bring down what was promised.

you just then realized that you are living in a world full of negative and positive energies. you have no where to run. instead, you are challenged to finish the fight that brought you to your standing.

in time, i started to count till the end of days. hoping that it would really come soon.

and now, as i wear a lot of mask in my everyday walk, i hope that i can still survive the true feelings that pang against my heart..

a feeling of being alone and weak.