above the clouds of thought

life has given a lot of challenges lately... though it has been fun for quite some time, i can't help but think that i would be losing something soon. or maybe, i would feel pain soon enough to bring pain in my life.

i am aware that i have just crossed some limits in my course of adventure. but then, sometimes, i cant help but think that i should not have done it at all. though, it brought me a new persona in me.. still, there is a tinge of regret shouting from afar.

but i remained calm and cool all this time. i just hope that someday, my mind would be enlightened to the fact that it would not be too late to grudge a new path, a new journey.

i have loved from its true meaning. and hope it would always stay the same even though, i have yet another to meet along the way. i hope nobody's getting me wrong from this.. i just mean to express my feelings that i am not yet tied up. i am yet still free.

the true meaning of feelings, i believe, should still be the same no matter what happened and what has become between two people. the true essence of a relationship should be the feelings invested in the heart, the companionship one has gained from another and the true meaning of what love is. no other motives should be counted on, no other actions done, just the real essence of what and how one loves the other.

pondering on these things have brought me to reality that every little detail that i have experienced in my journey towards realization has deposited a lot of learnings to bag in the real world i would be facing in the future.

i just hope that everything would drop to its proper place and have me gain a life that would not be of pain and regret and a life to be happy and full of contentment.

~kirsten~