The biggest confusion I have encountered: My Heart

most of the time, i am aware that i am a strong person who can overcome anything that would come my way...

but to my biggest surprise, i have discovered that i am weak after all...


and my weakest point is my heart.



most of the time, i can make decisions on my own...

but at this point, i think i can not answer all the mysteries that kept bugging me this past weeks...

is it "his" fault?

is it mine?

does preferences change as the person grows?

am i feeling this for real or for reel?

am i just caught in between my depression and would almost fall for someone i could not imagine at my side?

things do change.

feelings do change.


but there is one thing for sure,,,



my heart cannot answer at this moment the things it has been questioning all this time.

will this year end without answers? will i walk blindly through the heat of emtions?
or am i just fooling myself that somewhere, a person who is just in denial of "his" feelings is existing? when will i stop thinking that another is filling in for the emptiness in my heart, though he is not aware i am currently in an emotional crisis?

all these things are great. as when you think you have moved on, everything suddenly flushes in your mind that you can't escape the reality behind the feelings in your heart.


now the question is: how long will i endure the pain in my heart?


WHEN?

>>TRUE<<

I won’t talk
I won’t breathe
I won’t move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don’t look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I’m attached to you
I’m weak
Its true
Cuz I’m afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waiting
This is true

You don’t know what you do
Every time you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move
I’m weak
Its true
I’m just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited

This is true

I know when I go I’ll be on my way to you
The way that’s true

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited

This is true

SEPARATED... (is this the end?)

before the year ends...

i hope everything would be clear...

i know there are some things to be settled and to be solved...




one may deny the fact that things between everything were just normal circumstances of life...



i hope no one would close their doors to reality...




and so now, i think when everything should be done with; cleared with certain questions and when things should permanently close for us...






life would be better if we're SEPARATED... (even if the pain would not heal that fast...)

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Oh Well...

is this the right song for my status today...


or maybe i'm just weak to accept the truth... that...








some things are not meant to be...

Since you've been gone I've been lonely
Longing to be with you only
Maybe there's still is a way I can find you and say
Just how I feel.

I can't believe that's it's over
Wish somehow I could have showed her
All that was inside of my heart 'stead of playing the games
You might have stayed

Funny just the other night I was thinking
I wonder if you ever think about me
I call you on the phone, there's no answer

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Since you've been gone I've been lonely
Longing to be with you only
If there's a way I could beg you to stay would you please
Stay with me.

I was thinking maybe I could come over
Hoping we could finally work this out
Even if tonight we don't find an answer

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

If I had another chance
We would stand hand in hand
You'll be my girl and I'll be your man
Oh Well, maybe just maybe we can.

I still call you on the phone still no answer
Maybe later on I'll try one more time
Or am I just a fool to keep trying

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, a fool's what I am
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe
See if I got down on my knees and gave you every little part of me.

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Since you've been gone I've been lonely

That was it... :'c

Until now, everything seems to be blurry...

No signs of life as well as signs of recognition...

It is very sad to note that things are about to change totally...

From a good start to a sad ending...

Though not a single soul knows the truth behind the barrier that was made...

A storm of emotions are starting to wind up in one's ocean.

Is it time to move on?

Is it right to turn back to reality?

Is it proper to be unreal with oneself?

Is it wrong to be true?

Is it a sin to love someone who you cannot reach?

I think, that was it...

As the spirit of joyous celebration heats up,everything for the lonely ocean slows down...

When will the right signs show up?

Could someone out there ease down the pain that is seen beneath the mask of an actor?