Close Call...

"Boy I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Boy you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go"

- Usher [separated]



all this time, i thought i was strong enough to forget all the things that happened in my life that caused me so much pain...

i was wrong.

i realized it was not that easy to forget things or even people that has been attached to you...

though they may be aware or unaware of it.

as others have concluded: true love can be felt when you still shed tears for the one you love even though he or she may find it ridiculous for you to be crying over them.

i also would want to conclude that phrase...

all this time, i have pretended that i have forgotten.


but like i said, i was wrong.




little signs may be making such big difference in our lives. and i had experienced one of those close calls... how it hurts.


yup. it hurts a lot.

ones feelings were not shared because it was restrained...
and i felt, i was so bottled up that i am about to burst and blow my cover...
but it was good i have control over myself...

even though i kept on telling myself, life may be sweeter soon,
my time may not be today or tonight... it would be scheduled some day else...

if a person who understands my sentiments why am i feeling this way... one would think i am out of my mind...

why?
>> there is no attachment
>> no communication
>> nothing at all



but still... i am feeling so down whenever i hear or see signs of that person who, until now,



has not left his space in my heart...

though, i think that my space in his was either forgotten or was occupied by another...





well, here i go again... ranting on things that has been distracting me from reality.

the reality that i must learn to move on (even though it hurts a lot... and is so very hard to do...)

the truth that today is not yet the right time.

the patience i must acquire to wait for things that are soon to happen...

and the courage to face things in the future whether it may be good or bad...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

- BoyzIIMen [on bended knee]