Dear LIE - TLC

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I'd tell you get away from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it's you that hurts me more

[Chorus:]
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin' words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
I've got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie Lie
Lie Lie
Dear lie

Enough...

you have hurt me a lot... though you were not aware of it..


i think it's time to stop this feeling...


i would try not to long for you, even if my heart shouts your name...


i would try not to cry every night, even if my tears were meant to bring your memories back...


i would try not to miss you, even if my feelings were in the height of bursting...


maybe, i would just try to forget you.


but before that... i would just say thank you...


my life with you has taught me a lot about reality.


my strength was tested. my patience was measured. my vulnerability was discovered.


you opened my senses that loving can hurt a lot, especially if you are not meant to be together...



i have learned to accept things that i deny to myself.



i have learned that i can't love you at all.


i have learned that maybe, you cannot accept the real me.





but despite all these...




i will never regret every single moment i have shared with you...










i will never regret that once in my life, i have met and loved you.






thank you still.







and please.... i have one last favor to ask...










please remember my name. even just my name...

"ANGEL", I'm sorry...

I know this may mean nothing to you... (again.)

You may even ignore this... (like I said before.)(you may be even tired of reading this...)

All this time, I would heave a sigh thinking that every time I would be TRUE to what I feel, you're slowly disappearing from my life...


"How can I move on? I know I have no right to say these words. But I can't help feeling this way..."


I'm sorry for falling in-love with you... I guess that was the greatest fault I had made in my life. It was all a big risk... I'm really sorry...

True (Ryan Cabrera)

I won’t talk
I won’t breathe
I won’t move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don’t look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I’m attached to you
I’m weak
Its true
Cuz I’m afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waiting
This is true

You don’t know what you do
Every time you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move
I’m weak
Its true
I’m just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited

This is true

I know when I go I’ll be on my way to you
The way that’s true

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited

This is true

Dedicated to the ONE who called me "Angel"...

To the ONE who kept on running in my mind... I have no other way of expressing myself but through this...

I know you might not even care, you might even be irritated...

but all I can say is sorry... I can't help myself but to feel this way... though you have drawn the barrier between us before and have set limits, I am sorry.

Just let me be real to myself, if not to you.

I won't regret every single thing that I would say or do. Because all I know, all my intentions were pure and true from the heart...

And by the way,

Thank you still for coming into my life...




Pink White and Blue

i know im not the one you're thinking of
cause i am your past and im gone
so what now? cause i know this will be very hard
to go back in time press rewind
cause you don't know what i really feel
you don't know what i really need
you don't know my, you don't know my name
and the pain

your my angel in my own heaven
life is a miracle
its so surprising uninviting
i'll never be alone

i know im not the one youre dreamin' of
and i'll be home soon for you
so help me to swallow this beerville so i can fade
away

cause you don't know what i really feel
you don't know what i really need
you don't know my, you dont know my name
and the pain

your my angel in my own heaven
life is a miracle
its so surprising uninviting
ill never be alone

life to me is very real a miracle only i can feel
everytime i try to sleep i dream of you it feels so
real
everytime i try to breathe i suffocate its hard to
breathe
all of this beacause of you

i know you don't need me anymore
can i die for you?

your my angel in my own heaven
life is a miracle
its so surprising uninviting
ill never be alone

>>> special thanks to SPARKY <<<

Close Call...

"Boy I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Boy you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go"

- Usher [separated]



all this time, i thought i was strong enough to forget all the things that happened in my life that caused me so much pain...

i was wrong.

i realized it was not that easy to forget things or even people that has been attached to you...

though they may be aware or unaware of it.

as others have concluded: true love can be felt when you still shed tears for the one you love even though he or she may find it ridiculous for you to be crying over them.

i also would want to conclude that phrase...

all this time, i have pretended that i have forgotten.


but like i said, i was wrong.




little signs may be making such big difference in our lives. and i had experienced one of those close calls... how it hurts.


yup. it hurts a lot.

ones feelings were not shared because it was restrained...
and i felt, i was so bottled up that i am about to burst and blow my cover...
but it was good i have control over myself...

even though i kept on telling myself, life may be sweeter soon,
my time may not be today or tonight... it would be scheduled some day else...

if a person who understands my sentiments why am i feeling this way... one would think i am out of my mind...

why?
>> there is no attachment
>> no communication
>> nothing at all



but still... i am feeling so down whenever i hear or see signs of that person who, until now,



has not left his space in my heart...

though, i think that my space in his was either forgotten or was occupied by another...





well, here i go again... ranting on things that has been distracting me from reality.

the reality that i must learn to move on (even though it hurts a lot... and is so very hard to do...)

the truth that today is not yet the right time.

the patience i must acquire to wait for things that are soon to happen...

and the courage to face things in the future whether it may be good or bad...

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again
Until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

- BoyzIIMen [on bended knee]